New Definition for the Word “Mage”

Opposites converge within me;
I contain multitudes.
I contradict and argue with myself,
Not knowing what truth is.

Philosophy blurred the realm I thought as truth,
(How naive I was then)
The deeper the digging the more I un-knew.
What the point of “truth” when reality is questionable?

They asked me why I read the esoteric;
Hermeticism, Rosicurianism, new age, and so on,
I told them even “I” didn’t know.
Mind suspended from reality is the best candidate.

Answers come in flashes feeling like lightening,
the esoteric pulls me, not for conversion;
Not that I may practice magick,
Not that I may convert lead to gold.

(There’s lightning in the distance,
It back lights a dead tree next to a a prosperous one)

I am propelled onward to extract metaphor,
To absorb the ideas of all fields and then
To re-experience through these new senses,
that are laden with symbols.

This is my ars magica;
My modus vivendi.

Acorn

I am the acorn;
Not only because of my smallness,
But also my magnitude;
For I contain both.

The acorn is an angiosperm,
They self-contain, so are both child and protector,
Within, they are both seed and oak;
As am I, both child and man.

I adhere to the alchemist’s doctrine,
Men executed or gone mad pursing Great Work,
Because of the one image;
The marrying of opposites.

The all-transforming stone,
The key to ever-lasting life and youth,
Involved the courtship of Sun and Moon
In their infinite metaphoric representations

This acorn soul, then,
is both insignificant and grand,
Purposeless and telos-full
And the observer of this truth has no choice but to oblige.

I am the acorn
Not only because of my smallness
But also my magnitude;
For I contain all.

Ritual Before the Page

Wait for the dimming of The Effulgence
Sunset holds some charm
But the moon is the enchantress;
Meditate on her owlish demands.

Blood is not needed for this ritual;
Draw not your daggers of ceremony,
Because the lunar matron and Apollo require one thing:
The sacrifice is in segments of soul imparted to paper.

Your workspace is your altar,
Adorn it with the practical and aesthetic
Upon my alter to the craft rests Baldwin,
The patron saint over these words.

A stick of incense,
Or the mist of watered oil,
Neither have intrinsic power other than activating the senses;
In this activated state, though, you may begin.

Set your mind on the task at hand,
Then Close your eyes
and Open yourself  this visualization:
Yourself standing alone;
Multiply this self until you are abstraction
(How can you point “yourself” out in a lineup of identical selves?)
Next, recall the reaper—how nearby he approaches daily,
The sound of his scythe harvesting wheat,
Or souls, just outside your window.

Now, open your eyes and begin the soul-letting.

Rose Quartz

1.
Next to two rose quartz hearts rot two pineapples;
(Life is the poet; I’m just the stenographer)
The quartz sits pearlescent and smooth on kitchen windowsill,
Overseeing outside’s void.
Outside the home a rose bush fails to bloom,
Insects bore through the leaves’ bounty,
The bush, as all in all growth, Questions whether it can ever bloom again

2.
There is community of modern people who still practice magic;
Whether they call themselves witches, warlocks, or Wiccans,
This curious group meddles with the beyond,
And speculates on the nature of their craft.

Rather than be associated with sleight of hand or other such prestidigitation,
They eschew the spelling “magic” opting for “Magick”;
Rather than claiming the influence over reality,
They claim the influence over probability.

Purveyors of the crystal faith,
The clear quartz chakra aligners, the sapphire wisdom seekers,
Claim rose quartz can foster and repair a couples’ love,
But what heals the couple, the charm or the magician?

3.
I meditate with heart shaped rose quartz in hand,
Focusing whatever energy I have remaining from my exhaustion into the stone;
I’m not a witch nor warlock, and couldn’t be said to know much of anything,
But still, I meditate with heart shaped rose quartz in hand.

Witches who speculate on the nature of their magick know this fact:
It is never the object that asserts the power,
It is the will and power of the caster themselves.

I meditate with heart shaped rose quartz in hand,
Because it is as much my intent than any perceived magic that matters,
Beyond belief of the practice, I place my intention in the stone,
Because at least then then, there’s hope.